So I sometimes watch on Sunday nights a show called "Brothers and Sisters". It's a great show. Yet it seems the more I watch it the more I hate it. Why? Because it seems to pick up on things I am experiencing in my own life. Or maybe I just see it that way. There is a character on there named Sarah, she was stunned at the end of last season when her husband filed for divorce, and she wasn't even expecting it. Sound familiar? Now in the episode tonight she was blown away again when her husband decided to seek primary custody of their children. And won. As most know that is a nightmare of mine. It tears me up inside thinking that someday Chloe may only be with me every other weekend. I hate that she only seems me every other week now. I know it's not good for her, but I don't have the money to change it. Stability is what she needs and she can have that with me. She went to Wes' today for the first time in a couple weeks, she's been with her grandmother M. before. I am interested to see how it goes. I will worry all night about it, except I really need the sleep so I can work a 10 hour day tomorrow. I guess that is just the life of a mom.
In other things, I guess I am just all around feeling down. I have thought things were getting better in my life financially, emotionally, spiritually and even socially, but lately I have just felt alone. It's just one thing after another. I just need to keep believing i guess.
Chloe taking care of her babies.
Chloe taking care of her babies.
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