Taxes are filed!

So I just finished filing my taxes. Phew! For some reason I didn't qualify for the Child Tax Credit..( I think it is because I made less than 10K last year), which would have been nice. The sad part about my refund is that it all needs to go to debts. Which is good, getting out of debt, I just wish I could save it. Maybe I can save some of it. We'll see. I am going to sit down tonight and decide how I am going to split it up and to whom. Probably the ones who are hounding me the most, like the ones who sued me would be a good idea. :P

Boo. Nothing ever ends. I wish I didn't have this much debt, but that was one mistake I made in the marriage with Wesley. It will be refreshing to have it taken care of. Hopefully my credit score will start to go back up slowly.

In happier news. Chloe is home with me! I missed her SOOOOO dang much this week. I went all the way to Alpine to get her because Wes said he had food poisoning and couldn't bring her. He paid me 20 bucks. Which didn't really do much since it ate my entire tank of gas, but oh well. She had a lot of fun on the drive back and I can't wait to have a blast with her this week. I will post some pictures soon. We are going to get our photos taken this week.

Love you all!

Have a little Faith in Me

Some days like today are just really tough. nothing out of the ordinary has happened other than the fact that for the first time in awhile, I feel really down. I mean REALLY down. I can tell because it seems like everything whether good or bad makes me cry. I know I have always been emotional, it's what gets me into trouble, but I hate being this emotional. Chloe makes me so happy I cry. I see tragedy in the news like those poor innocent children in AL, and I cry. I see someone make their dream of making it to Hollywood on American Idol and I cry. It was the reason I was taking anti-depressants. I don't think I need them anymore, just more sleep and a better diet. I have slacked on both. The stress of the custody situation and constantly worrying about Chloe keeps me up at night, and then of course I don't eat much because I am too tired to cook. I worry about my job because I have so much going on that they worry. I think doing things like this (blogging) are helpful because it gets it all out of my system. I can breathe easier and focus if I just type what I am feeling.

Breathing easier now.....

On a non-sad note since Mom I know you don't like my blog because you think it is too sad, Chloe is just growing and growing. We still haven't had her 2 year check up because the doctors here book out 3 months in advance for Well-Child checks and not knowing this, Chloe is out til March for an appt. But she had an allergy test today (no allergies to Cats or Dogs, I was worried because she is always congested) and they measured and weighed her. (hehe that sounds like she's some kind of prize stock at the county fair!) Anyway she is 34 1/2 inches tall and weighs 28 1/2 pounds. She is really into the potty training now, we got the special training pants in the mail today to work on it more, she loves to brush her teeth especially when she gets to suck the water off her toothbrush at the end, and she now loves to help me wash dishes.

At play therapy tonight she was really cute and dressed up the dog Piko (pee co) with necklaces and a masquerade mask. It was funny, Piko didn't think so.

Still no word on custody. I met with Dennis yesterday, we discussed a lot of things among them getting a protection order against Wesley for his harrassment and following me Sunday night at the custody exchange. Because of the issue of it being completely separate jurisdictions we decided against it. However we are filing a motion that all custody exchanges now take place at the Tremonton Police Station.

Anyway, I love you all and should get to bed to really get some sleep for once. I can't wait to see some of you who are visiting soon.

Love, Me

New Haircut and the Rexburg Temple

Hi Family! I thought I would post a picture of my new haircut. It is not a very good photo, but it's all I got! I also had the opportunity to attend the Rexburg Temple Open House this week and thought I would post the group shot from that. Them temple is BEAUTIFUL. It has a theme of wheat tares throughout, it was fun to find all the places that they had put that design in. The stained glass, the handrails on the stairs, the carpets, etc. The murals are also gorgeous. My old art professor from BYU-I painted them. He was the one I worked for on campus. Brother Leon Parson, he's older brother to Del Parson the one who painted the famous Christ portrait we use throughout the church. It was amazing and beautiful and I can't wait to go back to go through a session there.

Hope you all are doing well. The usual is still happening with custody, I meet with the attorney Monday to see where we are at on getting a hearing. I have met a really nice guy (met him in November) and we talk frequently on the phone. He lives in Las Vegas, I am hoping to go see him soon. I will update all of you more, if anything comes of it.

Love ya!

Mickey Mouse

So Chloe is really into Mickey Mouse right now. She watches Mickey Mouse Clubhouse at daycare and got a Mickey Mouse Christmas card that she loves. It is making me wish I would be able to take her to Disneyland or Disneyworld. Disneyland would be the cheaper choice because I could drive and not have to pay for a flight. I think Chloe would LOVE it. Of course going alone would be no fun for me. Maybe someday.

Things with custody are progressing very slowly. Wesley keeps filing everything possible to keep us from getting a court date set. Today he accused me of making Chloe cry when he picks her up. Crying is the last thing I want her to do.

I just need a vacation! I can't wait to see everyone in March and just have to worry about being with family. Love you all!