Some days like today are just really tough. nothing out of the ordinary has happened other than the fact that for the first time in awhile, I feel really down. I mean REALLY down. I can tell because it seems like everything whether good or bad makes me cry. I know I have always been emotional, it's what gets me into trouble, but I hate being this emotional. Chloe makes me so happy I cry. I see tragedy in the news like those poor innocent children in AL, and I cry. I see someone make their dream of making it to Hollywood on American Idol and I cry. It was the reason I was taking anti-depressants. I don't think I need them anymore, just more sleep and a better diet. I have slacked on both. The stress of the custody situation and constantly worrying about Chloe keeps me up at night, and then of course I don't eat much because I am too tired to cook. I worry about my job because I have so much going on that they worry. I think doing things like this (blogging) are helpful because it gets it all out of my system. I can breathe easier and focus if I just type what I am feeling.
Breathing easier now.....
On a non-sad note since Mom I know you don't like my blog because you think it is too sad, Chloe is just growing and growing. We still haven't had her 2 year check up because the doctors here book out 3 months in advance for Well-Child checks and not knowing this, Chloe is out til March for an appt. But she had an allergy test today (no allergies to Cats or Dogs, I was worried because she is always congested) and they measured and weighed her. (hehe that sounds like she's some kind of prize stock at the county fair!) Anyway she is 34 1/2 inches tall and weighs 28 1/2 pounds. She is really into the potty training now, we got the special training pants in the mail today to work on it more, she loves to brush her teeth especially when she gets to suck the water off her toothbrush at the end, and she now loves to help me wash dishes.
At play therapy tonight she was really cute and dressed up the dog Piko (pee co) with necklaces and a masquerade mask. It was funny, Piko didn't think so.
Still no word on custody. I met with Dennis yesterday, we discussed a lot of things among them getting a protection order against Wesley for his harrassment and following me Sunday night at the custody exchange. Because of the issue of it being completely separate jurisdictions we decided against it. However we are filing a motion that all custody exchanges now take place at the Tremonton Police Station.
Anyway, I love you all and should get to bed to really get some sleep for once. I can't wait to see some of you who are visiting soon.
Love, Me
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