50 days to go

50 days to go until my Wedding Day! That is just insane to say. I had no idea that is what the Lord had in store for me 9 months ago when I lost my job.

On April 25th, I met the man who would change mine and Chloe's lives for eternity. I didn't know it that day. I knew that I had met a really nice, attractive young man and I hoped that we could be friends and if lucky something more. I hadn't wanted to go to that YSA devotional that night. I procrastinated getting there because of it. I had started a new job the week before and it was an adjustment to my schedule because I had to be at work at 7am! I wanted to go to bed early and be on time for work.
Instead after much deliberating with myself and very subtle promptings from the Spirit I went. The Devotional started at 7pm and I arrived at about 6:50. I had been feeling very lonely that weekend (Chloe was at her dad's for the entire week) and just felt I needed something. As I was walking into the building I said a quick prayer. I asked the Lord that if it was His will that I meet someone that night that I would. I even remember saying that it didn't have to be for romance just a good friend to talk to and keep me company.

As I went in I spotted a few people from my new Singles Ward, but didn't really feel comfortable enough to sit with them. Instead I picked a seat in the last row, on the end. Across from me sat an attractive young man, with curly blonde hair. This is where it all began. I didn't know things would change in just a few short minutes, but I am so happy they did. While sitting there I would glance his way, just trying to check him out a little more. Mostly trying to guess how old he was and if he was waiting for someone. He seemed really young to me, and so at nearly 28 I really didn't want to make friends with a 21 year old and then have him realize how much older I was. I kept glancing over for a few minutes, noticing he was doing the same. Yep, got caught looking at him several times. :)
About 5 minutes before the devotional was going to begin, he leaned across the aisle and asked me if I was waiting for someone. I replied no, and he immediately said "Well why don't you come sit with me, there's no sense in both of us sitting alone."

I agreed, and went and sat next to him. We had enough time to exchange our names before the program began. His name was Adam. The devotional that night was great. Elder and Sister Kolferd ( I hope I spelled that right) were a sweet couple, with a fun Spirit about them. I kept a few notes on some scratch paper I had in my scriptures. It felt a little awkward at first because laughing at jokes with someone you don't know is strange. (Are they just laughing because I am?)

After the devotional was over Adam and I had a few moments to talk. The first thing I asked him was how old he was. I laughed and asked him not to get offended. He wasn't and replied that he was 27, nearly 28. What a sigh of relief that was for me, I smiled at him and said "Good, because so am I and you look much younger." He was relived too because he said I also looked much younger. We chatted about where we were from and what wards we were in. We had enough time to discover that I had just moved here to SLC, and he had lived here his whole life.

I guess we liked the 10 minutes of talking to each other to exchange phone numbers. There were refreshments afterwards, but Adam said he had something he needed to get to. I decided not to stay either and went to leave. I ran into him in the hallway on his way out also. He watched me drive away and waved.

I left feeling very excited and nervous. He seemed like a really nice guy, but would he still want to be my friend when he found out about Chloe?

The next day, I decided to go ahead and make the leap and be the first person to reach out and chat, so I sent him a text message thanking him for asking me to sit by him because it made a huge difference for me, and it was good to have a new friend.

He sent me a message back and said the same. That night after work I had FHE with my ward up in the mountains for a bonfire. I had invited Adam the night before but he said he had his own that he needed to go to. I made a couple friends at the bonfire that night, and was surprised that one of the biggest things I talked about was meeting a nice guy at the devotional the night before. As we drove down the mountain my phone buzzed that I had a new voicemail. I listened to it and it was Adam! He had called around 7 to invite me to his FHE, but by the time he called I was already beyond cell phone reach, and when I got the message it was already past 9.

I went ahead and called him back anyway and apologized for not calling back and explaining where I was. He said that was okay and maybe another time. I agreed. We sent a few more texts back and forth the next day, and then I went ahead and invited him to come over and watch the Jazz playoff game Wednesday night. That took care of my worry about when to tell him about Chloe, because there are pictures of us all over the basement and I didn't want to take them down.
He came over and took it all in stride when I told him, and since I had thrown a bomb on him he offered one back by saying that he had been married before. That wasn't a big deal to me.

We talked the entire night! We barely watched the Jazz game. It was so nice and refreshing. We really began getting to know each other that night. The next day we met up at the rec center. He was playing ball with his friends, and I was working out. Afterward we went swimming at the pool. That was fun, there was just so much awkward tension surrounding us! It was a lot more talking, and a lot of fighting back being overly flirty.

That was it for us. I think we were hooked that first day, but didn't realize it until that swim.

The rest is just a blur, we became pretty much inseparable from that time on. We fell in love quickly, but it was right and it was good. We even fought saying 'I love you' for a few weeks, because of how fast. But one night he made me laugh (as he still does) and I just blurted it out. :) Luckily he felt the same.

After several trips to the temple and discussions with our Bishops we knew we wanted to be married for Eternity.

So here we are 50 days away from our wedding. Time is just flying. I am still amazed everyday at how lucky I am. Adam is wonderful. I never imagined that someone so good could come into my life. He works hard everyday to do the right thing, and be a better person. He treats me with such respect and love. We are still able to talk everyday about everything. We have both learned a lot about ourselves from previous relationships and that has made the difference in ours. He is so wonderful with Chloe, she loves him too though. He has taken over as a good male role model in her life and I couldn't be happier. Every once in awhile she will call him dad. It melts my heart. He has brought such good changes to my life. I am back to myself, with a few battle scars. I am not hiding in shell anymore. He has helped me see what I am worth, and that I am worth loving. He has helped me see what type of mother I am, and my potential to be better. I love him and cannot wait to share Eternity with him.

At this time we are still waiting to hear if we are going to be able to be Sealed. Our letters are in, it's just a matter of waiting now. If we don't hear by October 6 we will plan for a civil ceremony. Just so we can get invites out in the mail. If we hear before November 6 that we can be sealed and there are still time slots available, we will let everyone know by phone so they can plan accordingly!

I love him and am so grateful for all the support that we have been shown. See (most of you) in 50 days!